Motherhood is the most rewarding thing in the world, hands down! I love spending nearly every waking moment with my girls and every sleepless moment thinking and worrying about them. That being said it is crazy how lonely motherhood can be. Maybe people think that they are still in my life because I share so much of it on social media. That’s my mom’s theory anyway, she says people probably feel very involved in my life because they are virtually a part of it on a day to day basis. I guess I can totally see that being a reality, or lack there of.
Life is busy. When you bring babies into the world you need to just let your life change drastically and be content with that. This week is especially hard on me because for the first time in 13 years I am not involved with the Valentines’ Murder Mystery. I had to sit this one out for a number of reasons, health issues, the kids, Matt’s crazy grad class schedule. But I am truly sad that the show, as they say, “must go on” without me. If you know me you know that this has to be the biggest thing I have had to give up since becoming a Mom. I use to LIVE for Murder Mysteries! I hope that this is a one time only thing and that I will be back in the saddle next year. By then, I pray my health issue is gone and thankfully Matt’s grad classes end in May when he graduates! Yay!
So yes my life has become messy bun, coffee, leggings, Target, #themomlife, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I just hope that I can find the balance of not truly losing myself among the tutus, dollies, and juice boxes.